Hanging by a thread
He'd give anything for this to just go away
This grip is only so strong
I try to hold on tightly
But it's all slipping through my fingers
And I feel a moment, aspirations betray
Eyes that once beamed with hope now only stare in remorse
Even through this pain
I will feel again
Even through these tears
I will love again
Even through this pain
I will feel again
Even through these tears
I will love again
There will be no pity
There will be no sorrow
For today these hands may tremble
But this heart will never give in
Even through this pain
I will feel again
Even through these tears
I will love again
Even through this pain
I will feel again
Even through these tears
I will love again
And I will not fall
Fall from grace
And I will not fall
I will not fall from grace
I will not fall from grace
You're at the end of your rope
You're at the end of your rope
You're at the end of your rope
I will feel again
You're at the end of your rope
I will love again
So I posted the lyrics just in case you don't feel like listening. Or can't.
This was already written out, and I effed it all up so its a new rewrite.
This song got me through a lot of tears, pain, and thoughts. It all came out of no where that my marriage was ending. I mean I knew we were having issues, but nothing that couldn't be fixed. We just decided it was a good time to have a baby and then bam, over and done. He didn't even fight for it. Just gave up. Claimed he just couldn't be the marrying type. Which I call major bullshit. But I won't go into what I really think. Let's just say I've learned to always trust my instincts.
So I felt like major crap. Didn't eat for over a week. Lost 10 pounds in that week. I felt devastated. My whole world came crashing down. Eight years together, 6 married. Just gone. And I brought my daughters in to his life, and they weren't his, and now they have to live with the fact their real father isn't around cause he was a druggie, abusive ass, and the guy they grew up knowing as their Dad, isn't, and is gone. He still sticks around for them now, and if he didn't I'd probably punch him in his dumb head. But he's there for them when they need him.
So everyday for the longest time I just replayed it all over in my head. The fights, the begging, and everything in between. I just felt like I was sinking lower and lower. But I snapped out of it, and realized all the shit I put up with in that time, and how I lost myself in the process. It was always about him. What he wanted. He got all the new and good stuff, and I got the hand me downs. Granted I did have two brand new cars, but they were the family vehicle, and I didn't ask for them to be new or expensive.
So here I am, finding myself again. And repeating these lyrics to myself. "Even through this pain, I will feel again, Even through these tears, I will love again" because I will. And I have. I've started focusing on the important things in my life. Me, my kids and my future career. Because I can do this all on my own. I will never rely on anyone else to take care of me.
This was already written out, and I effed it all up so its a new rewrite.
This song got me through a lot of tears, pain, and thoughts. It all came out of no where that my marriage was ending. I mean I knew we were having issues, but nothing that couldn't be fixed. We just decided it was a good time to have a baby and then bam, over and done. He didn't even fight for it. Just gave up. Claimed he just couldn't be the marrying type. Which I call major bullshit. But I won't go into what I really think. Let's just say I've learned to always trust my instincts.
So I felt like major crap. Didn't eat for over a week. Lost 10 pounds in that week. I felt devastated. My whole world came crashing down. Eight years together, 6 married. Just gone. And I brought my daughters in to his life, and they weren't his, and now they have to live with the fact their real father isn't around cause he was a druggie, abusive ass, and the guy they grew up knowing as their Dad, isn't, and is gone. He still sticks around for them now, and if he didn't I'd probably punch him in his dumb head. But he's there for them when they need him.
So everyday for the longest time I just replayed it all over in my head. The fights, the begging, and everything in between. I just felt like I was sinking lower and lower. But I snapped out of it, and realized all the shit I put up with in that time, and how I lost myself in the process. It was always about him. What he wanted. He got all the new and good stuff, and I got the hand me downs. Granted I did have two brand new cars, but they were the family vehicle, and I didn't ask for them to be new or expensive.
So here I am, finding myself again. And repeating these lyrics to myself. "Even through this pain, I will feel again, Even through these tears, I will love again" because I will. And I have. I've started focusing on the important things in my life. Me, my kids and my future career. Because I can do this all on my own. I will never rely on anyone else to take care of me.
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